Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Dad

I received a call from Mom on last Monday at 12pm. She was crying so bad that I couldn't hear a word she said. Finally I get what she was saying, Dad had short breath and couldn't get up. I got up, took my handbag and car key, told my boss I'll be late and straight away drove back home.

He was weak. Really weak. My job: Pujuk untuk pergi Emergency Room. Finally he agreed. Had to papah him to toilet, teman him having his lunch while mom packed his bag, and drove to K*P*J Selangor. Tapi kena dua kereta memandangkan I have to be at office by 4pm (janji bos by 3 tapi belasah la). Accompanied him for a while at ER, then the nurse asked me to wait outside since they wanted to do XRAY there. OK, fine. I waited outside and since agak lama, I decided to come back later. Mom called me later and informed me that Dad was sent to ICU. He has kidney failure (he's on dialysis), pneumonia (both lungs are full with water), and his heart agak bengkak, besar jugak dengarnya.

Rushed to K*P*J after work, and few of my cousins (his side) were there. Doctor explained to Mom and Mie, since I had to look after Ashraf kat waiting lounge. Mom then called me, and mata merah dah bengkak. Doctor said his heart is too weak. So they put him on oksigen, and buat 1 round dialysis, then see how. Untuk masalah heart, nothing can be done for now. I stayed until 9.30pm and went back home.

Day 2,
Sampai hospital dalam kul 10 pagi, and stayed with him until 2pm. Masih lemah. Wayar-wayar tu memang berselirat lah. Toksah cakap. Kul 2pm, balik mandi and then came back with Mie. Mama tunjuk air dalam lungs kanan dia, for 10 minutes of drainage session, dapat 800ml air dari paru-paru kanan. Tapi now selesa sikit and dia tengah rest, on pain killer. Doc kata, esok nak tebuk lung kiri pulak untuk keluarkan air. tapi air masih banyak dalam both lungs, cuma tak boleh keluar sekaligus. Bayangkan macam belon, tetiba kurang angin kan leper sikit. So kena make sure tak kempis. Ini ayat berlapik dari doktor lah. Tapi dia dah lega, so boleh la cakap-cakap segala. Teman until 9.30pm then balik.

Day 3 (today),
Taking halfday off petang ni dan esok. Hari ni plan doktor, pagi dialysis dulu, then lepas tu tebuk lung kiri. Nak tengok air keluar banyak mana dulu. dah settle pasal dialysis and lungs, baru tengok heart.

His biggest worry is: The Cost. Hmmm..

Note: Aku pelik macam mana semua orang senang nak menangis tapi bukan aku. Susah untuk aku luahkan. Aku tengok kazen mazen semua dah merah mata merah hidung. Aku? Masih cuba bergurau dengan ayah aku. Memang condition dia kritikal, tapi dia sedar. Aku taknak lah dia lagi risau kot. Bila dia tengok orang nangis, dia pun keluar air mata kat tepi, aku lap. Lepas tu, aku melawak. Konon takmo dia pk sangat. Tapi tak tau la bila orang lain tengok, derang pk apa kan.

Wish: Get well soon Papa. Love you lots

7 comments:

Rose said...

I cannot imagine how you feel dear. My heart is with you

Wafaa said...

I understand. Sama2 kena bagi support.

ajan said...

Get well soon uncle.

Aiesha: i know how u feel. Take care!

nina said...

semoga bertabah .. takyah risau pasal apa yg orang lain pikir .. pelik ke, apa ke - biaq pi .. yg penting, jaga bapak nye bebaik .. harap semua akan ok - aku akan doakan - Insya`Allah ..

Putri Z. said...
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Putri Z. said...

I pray for your dad's health. u're just being a responsible, eldest daughter. don't feel guilty for not crying. your dad surely understands how truly concerned you are.

aieesha.salleh said...

Thanks korang for the comforting words :) really appreciate it. hoping for the best, for now